A man's search for meaning

In a world of 10 minute deliveries of your hypnotised wishes. Where is the app which delivers me meaning at my doorstep.

In a world where everything comes with a price tag of XX,999/- and an option to pay with easy EMIs of 10 days worth of worth for the next 12 months. I never could wrap my head around at the no-cost part of it.

I know there is a void in me. I can feel it. I assume there a few more like me too.

But I am told it can be filled. By the latest fruit branded device in my hand, which can make me feel accomplished amongst my fellow beguiled humans. Or at least in front of those, who couldn't get their hands on these yet.

If not by that, then may be wearing a billboard of a company on my torso. This one definitely should speak for me. Or may be the shoes that I can get - that too at the affordable price of my monthly groceries.

But I think it should be worth it. Or at at least worth a try - otherwise the entire would not have been doing it so happily. Happily? Are you sure?

I believe so.

They must know better than me. I think so. Not everyone could be wrong. Could they be?

I do not know. But I know I did everything that was told (sold) to me.

May be my package of meaning got misplaced. Lost in Transit. Or was it never dispatched? But I can "ask questions" right? What do you mean I can't question the ways of the world?

I did not understand it, can you say it again "Stop looking for meaning. Just do you fucking job."

There's no meaning. But I have seen glimpses of it.

When I was young and wanted to create something on my computer. When I followed my curiosities and struggled with the one problem for days. At last figuring it out all by my own.

When I bring gifts for the people that I love and I see that smile on their face. When we together experience something new for the first time and laugh together.

When I help people figure out something that I was able to figure out earlier than them. And see that gratitude in their eyes, because it really brings some change in their lives.

What do you mean "I will not get paid to help?". I will not get the corner office by following my curiosities and solving problems.

Okay. But will I find meaning in that struggle? Will I be happy?